Self-care is

morning meditation so I don’t have to move yet
moving my mouth before my hands 
and my hands before my body
and my body before my brain
coloured blocks of time on the calendar
a peppermint tea or an iced lolly depending on the season 
moving the coloured blocks of time
walking with music and making everything wait
picking up the phone for more than a text
finally feet planted on the same patch of earth
laying in the sunshine for as long as possible 
notifications off and sometimes
travelling in an aeroplane in my own home
podcasts and drawing and colouring-in
reading a fucking book or something made of paper 
instead of staring at a screen
a hot bath with bubbles and a fucking face mask
trying to stop my mind flying out the window 
when I cream my skin or brush my hair
haciendo las básicas y aprendiendo español 
refraining from hitting myself literally and metaphorically 
for feeling feelings and not being perfect 
moving the coloured blocks of time again
maybe less, maybe more 
sometimes worse, sometimes better
knowing one day we will swim, we will float

by Carmina Masoliver

Carmina Masoliver is a poet from south London, and founder of She Grrrowls feminist arts nights. She has been sharing her poetry on both the page and the stage for over a decade, and her small chapbook was published by Nasty Little Press in 2014. Her latest book ‘Circles’ is published by Burning Eye Books (2019) and is an illustrated long-form poem, and she recently self-published ‘Selected Poems: 2007 – 2012’, a mixed media pamphlet of poems. Her poetry has also been featured in publications such as Popshot Magazine, The Rialto and Brittle Star. Carmina was long-listed for the Young Poet Laureate for London award in 2013, the inaugural Jerwood Compton Poetry Fellowships in 2017, the Out-Spoken Prize in Performance Poetry in 2018 and the Grindstone International Poetry Prize in 2020. Alumni of the Roundhouse Poetry Collective, she has featured at nights such as Bang Said the Gun, and festivals including Latitude, Bestival and Lovebox both as a collective and individually. She performed internationally whilst living abroad, in Singapore, and in Spain. I/F: @carminamasoliver T: @CarminaPoetry 

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